Few shaky feelings.

Owh yeah, I got my previous sem result yesterday after been delayed for quite few times. Very inefficient department.

Basic composition (ENG101): A
General Psychology (PSY 190): B
General Biological Science (BIO100): B
Introduction to computer application (MIS101): C


Today as usual me,Denise, Ian and Shar wandered around summit. Shar and Denise were looking for prom dresses. The moment we were about to left, we bumped into JJ. You know, HITZ.FM/HITZ.TV JJ,bald and skinny guy. Apperently Shar knew him and we chatted for a little while. He's cool and friendly. Surprisingly he sounded huskier in person and don't look as skinny as appeared on TV.

Anyway,things got a bit cold and dull between me and B. We kind of purposely annoy one another at times. I think I have gotten cold and he has gotten dull. huh..

After Denise left with Shar,I had a talk with Ian about random stuffs. Kind of cool though and felt really comforting instead of awkward. We talk about relationship in between. He gave me some useful ideas and perceptions. He mentioned that things will get better between me and B. Thanks Ian. You helped a lot. Sincerely.

Another thing,I told Ian about how I love spiky earrings and lost the one B gave me,which was the only one I ever had. Then he offered to look for it and buy for me at his place but not at this very soon because he needs to study for his incoming exams. Meanwhile,he told me to have this one until he got me the new one.
Thanks Ian. Hmm... I love this.

Escaping reality...

Yesterday...

• I felt like I needed a sleep which could never wake me up.
• I felt like lying in the middle of the road in front of my house and wait until a car or even better, a garbage truck to run over me.
  
• I felt like going out of the house,grab nothing but the cloth on me,walk aimlessly until my legs went exhausted and drop dead near the highway.
• I felt like surrounding myself with any flammable fluid and ignite a match onto my skin and get myself burnt in the middle of my room.
• I felt like sitting on the bed with full stomach and quickly run a blade across my wrist.
• I felt like lying in Mama's bath tub filled with ice, insert a knife into my neck and move it in radius locus.
• I felt like hitchhiking any car an jump off it while it is driven at 120 km/h.
• I felt like drinking syrup mixed with concentrated bleach.
• I felt like dropping a 50 kg concrete slap onto my head in my yard.

But I didn't proceed those.. If I did, hell will surely sign a confirmation letter for my accommodation..

Few seconds to death...

Today I finished two papers: Basic Composition and General Biological science.
Denise and I were heading to my house after we ate lunch at Summit.

Everything was ok until I got into my housing area at USJ 2.
I was raining, I shaded my head with my leather file, I was going to run across the road.

It was in housing area, no big roads, not junctions, just houses and small roads.

Denise crossed to the other side, I've looked left and right.. OK! CLEAR!
IT WAS RAINING! IN HOUSING AREA! What the fuck should I wait for??

I made my first step and suddenly out of nowhere a loud and long honk triggered my right ear. Proton wira hit my right hip and I slightly glided onto its front bumper. The tyre nearly ran over my foot. I got this headache stroke into head for a while back then. Denise was screaming and showed the finger to the driver.

ALHAMDULILLAH is the first thing I said.

I'm still alive, God didn't state today as my death.

Fuck wei that man. Where did he think he was driving at?? Highway? F1?
IT WAS HOUSING AREA FOR GOD'S SAKE! Slow down and watch people crossing!!!

He didn't apologise at all anyway.
Fuck.


Anyway, It has been a year since B's sister death.
She's loved by God much more than us breathing here.

Nur Farah Illiyana Binti Mohd Fouzi
Departed on 27th of April 2008


We miss you vey dearly..

who needs me?

Sometimes I think I'm too freak.. People accept me but don't really want to hangout with me.. My so call 'bestfriends' planned something and excluded me.. Ok,maybe b'coz I've been absent for 2 days but that doesn't mean you should ignore me when I'm asking or getting myself involve~ I felt like 'terhegeh-hegeh' you know? volunteer myself when the others didn't even ask for one.. I'm wanted when I bring some food,snacks or lunch.. (What am I? A cafeteria Lady?) People don't think I'm cool to be with.. I'm just a freaky girl who could bent body parts,make ridiculous expressions,cooks good meals and have different taste in arts~ It's not my fault that you guys are stereotype! But, At least I still have a few who comprehend me.. And I love them.. Most from myspace but, they can't be by my side.. And this one piscesean who always notice me..but,still,always been on their side which is more fun~(I guess) But,however others treated me,I should be grateful to have Hubby.. He means to me more than anything.. He's warm and caring.. thanx B.. I love him~