Werewolf and a Vampire

I'm not talking about Twilight Saga here. Yeah, Stephanie Meyer made her dreams become reality in a form of sharing them with people and turning generations into some sudden Vampires, werewolves or just mystical creatures obsessives. I love these since I was 7 or even younger okayy...

I'm that awesome.....

*ok, now I'm just full of myself ;P

What I meant by the title of werewolf and a vampire was an actual dreams came true case. I even thought about whether there might be some supernatural forces behind these freaky incident. Well, I'm glad to realize that my reality isn't all that dull.

Yerp, not dull at all..... ;D

If none of you peeps doesn't know about the myth of werewolves and vampires are of different nature, technically are enemies by nature well, miracles do happen in a way to unite two beings whom are perfect for one another. Like the theory of the 'key and padlock', they look different but they are meant to be united to unlock something.

Yessss.....

I know, I write vague shitzzz

HOHOHOHOO.....

=D

Keria OR Telinga Keling???

Okay... I know what peple will think; 'stupid title'. NOOO, I'm serious here! I just learned how to make kuih keria that turn out looking like kuih telinga keling! You want to know why??? because I used purple yam!
F.Y.I. this is how kuih keria should look like.

And this how kuih telinga keling should look like..
This is the type of yam that I should use..
And this was the yam that I used..

The method is very easy! Well, my method atleast.. Boil the yam and prepare flour.

Mash up those yams and a bit of flour till they appear dough-like..


Make them into 'O' shape while you heat up the oil in the pan..

Fry them..

After fried put them aside..

Boil some water and add sugar. Don't put too much water and make sure they are just 'cukup-cukup'..

Put the fried dough into the water and sugar mixture...

Flip 'em till the mixture dry and take 'em out once the flaky sugar coated appear..

Okay.. mine didn't have the flaky texture because I didn't wash my pan! :P But this babies tasted superb and soft!!
Crispy on the outside but soft on the inside.. Or, brown on the outside but PURPLE on the inside!!

More professional shot! ;P

I say again, this is my KUIH KERIA! not TELINGA KELING!!

=D

Holiday at KD

My last activities before I went back to KD was enjoying 'Smash Party' party for free, get to hangout with Ayol, Gjoy, Adib and GABAN??... hee.. And after the gig ended, went to BB and chilled with Aiman, Mus and Krol.. And got a surprise hug from effie while on the way home..

In KD although can't get online the much thanks to the lame internet coverage here, I fill my time with:

-cooking
-jogging
-swimming
-sauna
-cleaning
-WATCHING TV/ASTRO

Yeah.. thats about it.. Pretty much my healthiest sem break ever! But one thing, I can't get to see my B till I'm back to Subang. Hope he misses me. Planning to take mama out for a movie. We'll see how thing goes.

:)

What makes me happy?

Things that never fail to make me happy:

-Being alive, still
-Seeing my mama smiles
-Having my sister and brother to back me up
-having the time to just look at Hubby in his eyes and feel his touch
-Knowing that there are non-blood related people who love me
-To actually achieve something
-To actually have real friends
-Laughters
-Getting a pack of thin and super dark chocolate
-Methols (in any form)
-Black stuffs/outfits/things.
-Metals
-Musics that can make me feel like being in Autumn, Rainy day under the bridge, clear field under the starry sky, dry land, fantasy world, etc..
-To be able to help others and make others happy
-Ice-cream (paddle pop rainbow)
-My cats
-Sensuous moment
-comfortable condition
-Having enough money to eat and feed my Hubby

Always missing him..

I miss him everytime he is out of my sight. My drugs; shaky without it, dependent on it but kept abusing it when it is available.

I'm still alive.

But my guts is dying.. Why? I don't know. I've became a weaker person and fragile.. I'm degrading!!

OWH YEAH! I got new piercings; labret and eyebrow



Nway, today someone made me happy over the head.. ;)

Fresh...

The old leaves have withered away from this root..

Now I'm new, fresh, green, alive...

And same goes to everything...

Look things from different angle..

Life shouldn't be all negative..

:)

Craving for serenity..

I'm chasing a peace...
But it ran further and further away from me...

Wanting a bliss for now and after life...

My smiles will be fake.. My laughters will be a torture inside..



I'm not going to force anybody, not the one I loved..
Not giving up, just don't want to be lied..
Romance used to be sincere..
But, they are fake now after that incident..

I don't want to see you put on your happy mask while inside you're not..
And is said the 'love' is at minimum close to hate..
Lust are meaningless without your heart in it..

I'm going to miss you..
miss the memories..
miss the touches..
miss the laughs..
miss the kisses..
miss the fights..
miss the hugs..
So much...

Be happy always..

I SHALL LOVE YOU ALWAYS

Empty Raya..

My Raya was plain.
My gramps on my father's side don't even like me anymore.
Same on how they treated my mother.

Blood discriminating blood....

Spent the whole first raya indoor, 2nd day went home.

Normal stuffs..
Went out with my family and B on tuesday,
went out with B again and my friends on thursday..

Bought stuffs for B, hoped he appreciates those little treats.
emotions still shaky.

Owh yeah, thanks to my peeps for couldn't even careless to reply my Raya Wishes. Such a waste of my prepaids. There were just a few and thanks to those.

HAHA.

I know this is a boring lame post.

Whatever life..

Inferiority.

Yes, me and inferiority were always the best pals. It never leaves me. Till the time when I was introduced to confidence and esteem. I have changed.

I have changed a lot for this past three years..

A lot...

I know..

But somehow, inferiority will never let me go. It will return and kill my esteems.. and drag me back to it. It sowed paranoia and down-dom and they grew very well. I'm not able to pluck them out. They are a part of me. Was, now and will ever be.

My surrounding, my love, my friends keep feeding my inferiority. Until it became so fat and greedy for more. Over little, petty matters can turn the perception 180 degree to regret, death wish and invisibility.



Owh how well it grew..

World, do make me down because I couldn't feel anymore deteriorated then I already am.



Because me, paranoia, inferiority and down-dom are best friends...

Winding..Looping..and spaced out~

No more Midnight and Cloud..
Sent them off about 2 weeks ago..
Missing them.. I love you two and we're very sorry..

And things are getting shaky.. More or less, everyone seems to be shaky..
I'm vibrating.. Vibrating with confusions and urges of concluding something instead, I winded them up more.. Even more.. There just too many loops and unknown paths and spaces in mind and heart.. I can't even name what am I seeking or thinking..

And things will be too dull, too confusing, too troubled or too undefined..
Why?

And I'm currently wanting happiness.. Compact happiness.. But I'm currently spaced out.. I'm keeping a distance between me and the thing that I wanted the most.. And things winded up even more..

Listening and watching Matthew Bellamy really keeps me at peace. For a moment.

It's a weird feeling...

the touches were merely real,
the words were naked,
the actions were spontaneous...

And a love happened without the confession of love.

Few shaky feelings.

Owh yeah, I got my previous sem result yesterday after been delayed for quite few times. Very inefficient department.

Basic composition (ENG101): A
General Psychology (PSY 190): B
General Biological Science (BIO100): B
Introduction to computer application (MIS101): C


Today as usual me,Denise, Ian and Shar wandered around summit. Shar and Denise were looking for prom dresses. The moment we were about to left, we bumped into JJ. You know, HITZ.FM/HITZ.TV JJ,bald and skinny guy. Apperently Shar knew him and we chatted for a little while. He's cool and friendly. Surprisingly he sounded huskier in person and don't look as skinny as appeared on TV.

Anyway,things got a bit cold and dull between me and B. We kind of purposely annoy one another at times. I think I have gotten cold and he has gotten dull. huh..

After Denise left with Shar,I had a talk with Ian about random stuffs. Kind of cool though and felt really comforting instead of awkward. We talk about relationship in between. He gave me some useful ideas and perceptions. He mentioned that things will get better between me and B. Thanks Ian. You helped a lot. Sincerely.

Another thing,I told Ian about how I love spiky earrings and lost the one B gave me,which was the only one I ever had. Then he offered to look for it and buy for me at his place but not at this very soon because he needs to study for his incoming exams. Meanwhile,he told me to have this one until he got me the new one.
Thanks Ian. Hmm... I love this.

Escaping reality...

Yesterday...

• I felt like I needed a sleep which could never wake me up.
• I felt like lying in the middle of the road in front of my house and wait until a car or even better, a garbage truck to run over me.
  
• I felt like going out of the house,grab nothing but the cloth on me,walk aimlessly until my legs went exhausted and drop dead near the highway.
• I felt like surrounding myself with any flammable fluid and ignite a match onto my skin and get myself burnt in the middle of my room.
• I felt like sitting on the bed with full stomach and quickly run a blade across my wrist.
• I felt like lying in Mama's bath tub filled with ice, insert a knife into my neck and move it in radius locus.
• I felt like hitchhiking any car an jump off it while it is driven at 120 km/h.
• I felt like drinking syrup mixed with concentrated bleach.
• I felt like dropping a 50 kg concrete slap onto my head in my yard.

But I didn't proceed those.. If I did, hell will surely sign a confirmation letter for my accommodation..

Dreaming...

Mama bought every of Muse albums. I've listened to all of them. They're just plain wicked awesome! I'll say salutation absolute!!

Their songs just drown me into dreams... Feed me with ballad-full thoughts that are invisible to society.. But they are just dreamy to me.. too dreamy.. A bit of sore but that what I like.. Dark,dreamy,sore, and aahh...

These are few songs that currently kept drumming my ears and dancing in my head:

• sunburn
• map of problematique
  
• the small print
• uno
• unintended
• new born
• bliss
• stockholm syndrome
• yes please
• thoughts of dying atheist
• exo-politics
• muscle museum
• butterflies and hurricanes
• overdue
• endlessly
• and many more!!!

Owh,and yea.. I own I am ghost album Lovers' Requiem!! Can't believe I got it from Rock Corner in Subang Parade!! I thought I will never find their album in Malaysia. YEAY!

Nearly got bustard experience!

This post is for 3 days ago. I was to weak and blank to type.

My fever got worse, and so goes to my throat and eyes. My body was so burning inside till it made my eyes became red. I felt like they're going to explode or something.


p/s: I forgot to rotate these pictures. The redness of my eyes couldn't be seen clearly due to the usage of 2 mega pixel, HP camera..*Low quality. And yes, I looked dull and ugly..


So B came to treat me. He cooked for me and take care of me a little bit. That particular day, Mama had a Human Resources International Congress at Golden Horses. The course should end at 6.30 pm but Mama told me that she's going to ditch at 4.30 pm.

Follow me here.. Mama okay with B coming to the house.. NO PROBS on that. But she told me like trillions of time of not letting boys into the house whenever there's no parents at home. But I ignored that. So I usually make B leave earlier than my parents arrive or sit outside as though as I obeyed their words.

But that day, I fell asleep because I was really weak and B slept next to me. We slept around 2pm something. But suddenly I woke up around 3pm due to having a sort of weird and fishy instinct. I left B and open the back door to take in dry clothes. Suddenly I heard the sound of my house gate opening and the sound of Getz engine approaching. *MAMA

"B! Mama da balik la!!"

I told him to escape through the back door and wait for better situation to run home. I immediately greeted Mama and while she was closing the gate, I took B's slipper and ran towards the back door and passed to him. I stalked Mama by asking *bla,bla,blaa... Apparently she ditched the course after lunch time! And then the next thing I realized, B safely escaped and Mama didn't notice anything. Pheewww....nearly bustard eh?

I thanked Gad for giving us the chance. Huhh... Next time, got to have better precautions!!

Fever,sore throat and headache..

The title explained it all.. I'm having fever, sore throat (a really bad one) and a headache *which triggers my nerves like a time-bomb due to every step I take..

So I ended up lying like a breathing corpse all day long..

I didn't eat because of this swollen throat..

I'm taking care of myself so that I'll get well soon..



But now I feeling a bit better than the first time this fever stroke me..
Sadly a few of my family members are starting to get down with it. *I'm the cause??

AARGH~
Whatever la.. If I'm the cause it's their fault of not taking care of themselves well enough..


But currently I'm worrying about my kitties' health.. They're having this flu,non-stop sneezing..
Sky is having swollen eye like Mochino had before.. Guess it's in the genetic maybe..

POOR THING..

Bought medicines and now my new activity is forcing them to swallow those medicines..

Pease get well soon..

huh..

From Alya's tag

1)Leeya
2)Fina
3)B
4)Faiek
5)Zen



Question 1 : How do you meet 1?
SKBB standard 5 cekal

Question 2 : On the Scale of 1 - 10, how you rate your relationship with no 1?
8.5?? Coz jarang contact la.. but we good,no probs~

Question 3 : How long have you known 4?
since standard 1, 7 years old so... already been 11 years..

Question 4 : How do you know number 3?
Through the twins Nabila and Nadira.. He was their friend..

Question 5 : Where 5?
Her home I guess: ss18

Question 6 : A Fact about number 1?
She only live by her own rules..

Question 7 : Who is no 4 going out with?
Ajim.. Her boyfriend..

Question 8 : What does no 1 do for living?
Stuck and stink up for the past 5 months in her home..

Question 9 : Would you live with number 3?
Definitely!! My wish..

Question 10 : What do you like about no 2?
Sharing secrets..

Question 11 : Do you miss number 5?
Yea.. especially her blurness..

Question 13 : What's your opinion of number 2?
She's so open minded..

Question 14 : What is your fav memory with number 5?
Going out and persuaded her to shop till drop..

Question 15 : What would you do if number 1 going out with number 2?
Heh?? They never met so it'll be too weird.. and plus,mismatch of characters!

Question 16 : ever had a long conversation with number 5?
Yeap~

Question 17 : have you ever slept at number 2's house?
Nope but she slept at mine...

Question 19 : Who do you known the longest?
No.4: Faiek

Question 20 : How often do you talk to number 1?
Through blog usually.. One way conversation :(

Question 21 : What about number 2?
She's so passionate about music..

Question 22 : Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
We are more than friends.. We're lovers who always argue and fight..

Question 23 : May be you want to go out for a date with number 5?
Hahah! Always! whenever class ends earlier than it should.

Question 24 : Do you dream about number 2?
Not yet that I remembered..

Question 25 : What did number 4 did to you that you never forget?
Kiss me in class.. Actually we planned that.. A little french between..

Question 26 : What have you done to number 1 that he/she never forget?
Date after school before she was shipped to prison s. I guess...

Question 27 : What is number 3's hobby?
Jamming, playing and listening to music and any other related to music that I can think of..

who do you want to tag :
Anyone who pleased to do this..

Ghosts, spirits, appirations and paranormal stuffs

Don't ask me why. I'm the kind of girl who doesn't enjoy dramas and soap operas. I like watching reality shows especially Ghost Hunters. It gives me this minor adrenaline rush every time I watch the show and I look forward to the reveal at the end of every episodes. Just watch 3 episodes and that explains why am I still awake whereas I'll be sitting for final exam tomorrow??

Yeah.. should be getting to bed now..

MUET..3/4 done..

Today was very tiring..
huh..

only left with speaking test on 7th of May..

nite2~